My life has definitely been a big roller coaster lately. Like nothing is going like it should. And it’s not in the pleasantly surprising kind of way either. As of this point right now. I am tired. I am emotional. I have a headache. I am alone in a city I have never been to before and I have accomplished nothing in this visit. My face hurts. Everything is crap. The only thing that has made this day somewhat of a success is that I met some people who were pretty legit.
I wanna go home, crawl into a blanket, and stay there for a while.
*sigh* what a day
yeah I honestly just like to hide my feelings. you know eat them, swallow them and then just never allow them to resurface.
I dyed my hair yo. I really love it and I wanna put up a picture but I cannot take a picture that gives the color justice. I shall try again tomorrow though..
I’m friends with this guy who’s white and we’ve been friends for like 5 years and he’s great and all but I cannot with his views on political issues like race, gender, sexuality. And it’s getting to the point where it’s driving me a little crazy. Like can we please not?
Kinda feel like I should drop him but we’ve been friends for a while. And i’m not about changing people’s views. Like you believe what you want, but I’m gonna let you know what I think about it. The worst part though has to be that he’s not even open about getting more educated/information about these areas that he has limited understanding of. For example if I tell him about an experience he might say something like “Well are you sure you didn’t misunderstand the situation?” Yeah I’m pretty fucking sure.
Anyways it gets really frustrating.
Went to eat at this Thai restaurant called Pok Pok this past week and it was really good! But as I’m looking up restaurants in Portland the description of the restaurant is “Classically trained chef Andy Ricker moves to Thailand, learns to cook Thai food better than the locals”.
*sigh* I always find narratives like this a little disturbing…
my damn phone is auto correcting Lupita into Lolita. my phone knows absolutely nothing. i’m trying to spread a good message and my phones just screwing it all up.