Well clearly, I’m so perfect that guys just get really nervous about asking me to prom. If I knew how to tone it down a bit, I would, but (*sigh*) you can’t just mess with perfection.

I am like a nervous wreck when I’m driving with my dad. When I’m driving by myself, I’m fine. As soon as my dad is in the car though, I always almost get us killed… He makes me so nervous though….. I almost got us killed today…
I just dont want to disappoint him, and so I, you know, try to get us killed…

They are times where we might disagree and there might be a little discomfort and hate(maybe more on my part), but I guess when things count they are really awesome. It’s amazing how many people are just nice people and are willing to help you out. This week has been a rollercoaster, but a lot of lessons have been learned and some new friends made. They are moments when I think that I don’t have any importance in the world, and then they are moments where I question how this world would even function without me! Today I’m having one of those ” I am the bee’s knees, and you can’t convince me otherwise” days. We’ve made like 200 dollars for the fundraiser so far, and that is better than not making any money, and there have been some really generous people! This one guy said that he had some lunch money that he saved, but he wanted to donate it (?). I don’t think some people understand how awesome they are! And it’s also really cool watching people convince their friends to donate and.. I’m just feeling a lot of love for the world right now!

Is there anyone who has taken an African Studies class?
What did you think about it? Did you like it?
My dad said I shouldn’t take it because they wont serve Africa justice…

Today when I was driving my mom to work I saw this one guy jogging, who was potentially attractive. On my way back I was asking God to please let him still be jogging so I could get a good look at his face, and the Lord answered my prayers. I saw him and I looked a little too long, didn’t swerve off the road or anything, but had a moment there… He was really attractive to say the least. He was Arab, and I have never seen him around here ever. There aren’t too many Arabs who live in these parts, but I wonder if I’ll ever see him again. 

Oh and I definitely think that he saw me looking at him. Like he saw as my head was turning, so he probably knew it wasn’t just a glance. Anyways, he was attractive

Damn you, Facebook, for making it so easy to creep.

You know when you feel like the world is against you and all of the sudden your outlook on everything around you is just one big suckfest? You hear people laughing and you just assume that it’s about you? Today started out really good, but then someone completely ruins it. Just a small act or a snicker or a look from someone. Maybe the way they said something? Your day just gets that much less enjoyable..As if all the potential this day had just evaporated. Well, better luck next time.

Shit’s getting real. shit is getting really real.

Story of my life. Literally. Everything. Everywhere I’ve always gone to school, people have always been shocked when they find out I’m Tanzanian. Always leading my thoughts to the question ” What does an African look like?” Then there’s the struggle of going back home and not fitting in quite right, but at the same time not exactly fitting in here in the states. I’m not American, but at the same time when I go back to Tanzania I get this weird mixed up feeling when I’m walking with my aunt or something and then I speak English and people start to stare at me in confusion. Or when my little cousins associates me with wazungu. Or when I’m speaking swahili with someone who isn’t a family member and then halfway through the conversation they ask “Where are you from?” Then to actually get American citizenship would just be like saying, “Alright, see you’re American” -____________- The struggles of being an African living in the U.S.

and there is this story about this women who got mauled by a lion at, well it wasn’t a zoo, but something kinda like that I think. The news reporter then said investigators are still trying to figure out why the lion did that.

I don’t understand why people think that just because you put a wild animal in captivity. It all of a sudden stops being a wild animal.

Nicki Minaj is something else. I don’t even know why she’s there…

Like the way she talks…and she’s just…..yeah…

Go home.

My great-grandmother turned 102 today!!!

I’ve seen her like twice(in memory) and I hope to see her next time I go back because she’s an amazing women, and is as strong as ever!

I just really wish that I knew kibena because she doesn’t know swahili too well and it’s always way hard communicating with her. Same to my mother’s native tongue kichagga, because her grandmother is still alive too and communication is slim to none with her. Anyways, both of these wonderful great grandmothers of mine have been alive for a little over a century so it kinda sucks not being able to talk to them about the wonders they’ve had and encountered in the last 100 and so years. Family members who can speak their tribal languages always talk about the amazing stories they hear from them and well I just can’t.. So I’m a little jealous haha

I feel like I’m finally just doing what I want to do. I’m not caring what other people think, and I’m just doing alright haha I feel a lot more comfortable singing in general right now, where as before I would feel really nervous, and feel the need to satisfy other people instead of just sing because it’s what I love to do. I’m feeling like I’m making more of a voice for myself, and it’s weird  but I think it’s a good thing, a good change.

I also have the albino fundraising thing that’s coming up, so I’m excited for that as well. Things are going a little slow right now, but I’m really hoping they pick up and I can make it happen. I can’t believe how far I’ve gotten with it already and I’m almost there so I’m just super excited.

Oh, also I reunited with some old friends this past week and I’m just feeling really loved, and like I can do almost anything, and it’s just a really great feeling. 

Last thing, I am a director for these one acts at my school this year. Last year I was an actor in them, but now since I’m a senior, I can direct! I’m not really sure what I’m doing, but I bet it’ll be fun! This last half of the year, should be exciting! :D

Okay, second video. I don’t think I’m going to post the last one though…Because I’ve already sang it before,and I kinda messed up lol